tearingtherose

I'm a married man and have been trying to figure out my sexuality since I was 10. In my teens I "experimented" (kissing, oral & anal) with other lads but was terrified of coming out. I eventually feel in love with a woman and have been married for 20 odd years. I have struggled with my sexuality nearly my whole life. A few months ago I realised I must be gay, that my fear of coming out has kept me in the closet.

In hindsight it should've been obvious. Women are beautiful but I have no interest in seeing them naked. My wife always initiates and it takes forever to get hard. The only position that works for me is doggy style. She thinks it's because it provides more stimulus but it's actually because I'm pretending that I'm looking at a man's ass and there is a cock flopping around out of sight.

Since coming out to myself, I have had a number of long repressed memories resurface, including grade school crushes on other boys and even a holiday where I was going to tell my dad I was gay when I was 12.

There are men in my life now and I feel more comfortable, more loved and more desired than I have ever felt before in my life. I've enjoyed sex far more these last few months than I have in decades.

As of March 2024, I have finally come out to my family and friends.